February 2009
The heart of a woman
is a well.
It runs deeply and reflects the echoes of her insecurities and doubts.
If you put your ear close enough, you may hear her celebration, her lament.
It can give out love by the bucket, but who’s to say that it is given back in return?
Men will throw down their coins and their rocks and whisper their secret desires, hoping she will answer their every prayer… but for what...
January 2009
Intoxicated
… by your very presence.
Drunk without alcohol and content without worrying, I just want to hold you and not say a word. In the silence, I know it’s right. You’re right.
The insecurities that plagued my mind only nights ago are just a ghost.
Because when you smile at me, I remember why you’re changing my life.
… and yet again, I’m another step closer to that...
If another should come who’s finer than me,
...
PYC.
No sleep.
Hella work.
But hella fun.
Simple as that.
I'm usually not an emotional drunk, but...
Seeing you in pain made me cry.
I wanted to help you, but I knew it was out of my control.
So I stood back and let you handle the situation.
And in that moment, I realized that I care for you more than I ever have for a person.
I finally let it sink in, and that’s why I cried.
…
A part of me is glad you don’t remember this part of the night.
The rest of me is sad, because...
Sometimes it feels like...
My life is consumed by TO DO LISTS.
I’m constantly creating these things — whether it be on my iCal or OmniOutliner or my student academic planner or random pieces of paper. I’m always listing all that I need to do and what I have yet to do. I’m always trying to be one step ahead of my life, hoping that I can strike a line through another task and hopefully feel like...
My mind’s telling me NO, but my body, my...
Head over flats-not-heels.
I’m starting to miss you a lot more, and it scares me.
You’re different.
I can feel it.
—EDIT
Why am I scared?
“You walk up to a CEO on Wall Street and you ask, “Hey, did you get the...”
– My stat’s teacher and her horrible English.
(FYI, she’s talking about Christmas bonuses.)
PYC Counselors' Retreat
I revealed more than I ever have of my life outside of UC Davis and received so much support. Even when I couldn’t breath, couldn’t get the right words to come out of my mouth, I knew that you all were listening. Thank you.
I can’t wait to see you all again in two weeks. For some of y’all, I get to see you every day so that is a blessing in itself.
I learned so much in a...
For some reason...
I want to watch all my favorite childhood Disney films.
Aladdin, Pocahontas, Beauty & the Beast, The Little Mermaid, Hercules, and Mulan.
I miss the oldies-but-goodies.
Never gonna be like that ever again, that’s for sure.
Close your eyes, clear you heart … cut the...
Benjamin Button
Every time Brad Pitt appeared on the screen, we squealed.
Omg, you are gorgeous.
Leave Angelina for me.
Please.
Damien Rice ftw.
He and James Morrison own my...
Give me $150 or else you fail.
Tell me why buying a flimsy paperback stats textbook and a flimsy paperback bio lab manual costs me $150 total. I bought more items at Coach and spent less money.
Man, fuck my education.
Too expensive to even keep up with it.
(This doesn’t even include the $35+ I’m going to spend on a ochem lab manual once I get my hands on a copy.)
Slumdog Millionaire
Loved the music, loved the story, and reminded me why I loved the Who Wants To Be A Millionaire show.
Thank you Jaymar.
Resolutions are made to be broken.
1. Work out, or attempt to, more frequently. No more wasting hours on Youtube when I can be doing some mean crunches.
2. Go to class like my life depends on my attendance, even when it doesn’t.
3. Learn to manage my time more wisely. No more studying the morning of midterms and exams!
4. Go to sleep like a normal person.
5. Teach myself how to drink coffee without a ton of sugar in it.
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